Something I want you to know about me is that I have a PHD in self-abandonment. I mean, not an official one from an esteemed university, but a lived experience that warrants a PHD. I have gone granular on self-abandonment, avoidance, and disconnection. I have studied and examined what it feels like to move away from yourself, drift away, run away, numb out, disappear, and make yourself invisible. I have been a master of it. I have been a servant of it. And I have been a fight